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〃I　wasn't。　But　what's　the　idea　of　a　hospital　without　a　doctor？〃
〃He's　ing。　They've　telephoned　for　him　to　Lake　o。〃
〃What　does　he　do　there？　Swim？〃
〃No。　He　has　a　clinic　there。〃
〃Why　don't　they　get　another　doctor？〃
〃Hush。　Hush。　Be　a　good　boy　and　he'll　e。〃
I　sent　for　the　porter　and　when　he　came　I　told　him　in　Italian　to　get　me　a　bottle　of　Cinzano　at　the　wine　shop；　a　fiasco　of　chianti　and　the　evening　papers。　He　went　away　and　brought　them　wrapped　in　newspaper；　unwrapped　them　and；　when　I　asked　him　to；　drew　the　corks　and　put　the　wine　and　vermouth　under　the　bed。　They　left　me　alone　and　I　lay　in　bed　and　read　the　papers　awhile；　the　news　from　the　front；　and　the　list　of　dead　officers　with　their　decorations　and　then　reached　down　and　brought　up　the　bottle　of　Cinzano　and　held　it　straight　up　on　my　stomach；　the　cool　glass　against　my　stomach；　and　took　little　drinks　making　rings　on　my　stomach　from　holding　the　bottle　there　between　drinks；　and　watched　it　get　dark　outside　over　the　roofs　of　the　town。　The　swallows　circled　around　and　I　watched　them　and　the　night…hawks　flying　above　the　roofs　and　drank　the　Cinzano。　Miss　Gage　brought　up　a　glass　with　some　eggnog　in　it。　I　lowered　the　vermouth　bottle　to　the　other　side　of　the　bed　when　she　came　in。
〃Miss　Van　Campen　had　some　sherry　put　in　this；〃　she　said。　〃You　shouldn't　be　rude　to　her。　She's　not　young　and　this　hospital　is　a　big　responsibility　for　her。　Mrs。　Walker's　too　old　and　she's　no　use　to　her。〃
〃She's　a　splendid　woman；〃　I　said。　〃Thank　her　very　much。〃
〃I'm　going　to　bring　your　supper　right　away。〃
〃That's　all　right；〃　I　said。　〃I'm　not　hungry。〃
When　she　brought　the　tray　and　put　it　on　the　bed　table　I　thanked　her　and　ate　a　little　of　the　supper。　Afterward　it　was　dark　outside　and　I　could　see　the　beams　of　the　search…lights　moving　in　the　sky。　I　watched　for　a　while　and　then　went　to　sleep。　I　slept　heavily　except　once　I　woke　sweating　and　scared　and　then　went　back　to　sleep　trying　to　stay　outside　of　my　dream。　I　woke　for　good　long　before　it　was　light　and　heard　roosters　crowing　and　stayed　on　awake　until　it　began　to　be　light。　I　was　tired　and　once　it　was　really　light　I　went　back　to　sleep　again。




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It　was　bright　sunlight　in　the　room　when　I　woke。　I　thought　I　was　back　at　the　front　and　stretched　out　in　bed。　My　legs　hurt　me　and　I　looked　down　at　them　still　in　the　dirty　bandages；　and　seeing　them　knew　where　I　was。　I　reached　up　for　the　bell…cord　and　pushed　the　button。　I　heard　it　buzz　down　the　hall　and　then　some　one　ing　on　rubber　soles　along　the　hall。　It　was　Miss　Gage　and　she　looked　a　little　older　in　the　bright　sunlight　and　not　so　pretty。
〃Good…morning；〃　she　said。　〃Did　you　have　a　good　night？〃
〃Yes。　Thanks　very　much；〃　I　said。　〃Can　I　have　a　barber？〃
〃I　came　in　to　see　you　and　you　were　asleep　with　this　in　the　bed　with　you。〃
She　opened　the　armoire　door　and　held　up　the　vermouth　bottle。　It　was　nearly　empty。　〃I　put　the　other　bottle　from　under　the　bed　in　there　too；〃　she　said。　〃Why　didn't　you　ask　me　for　a　glass？〃
〃I　thought　maybe　you　wouldn't　let　me　have　it。〃
〃I'd　have　had　some　with　you。〃
〃You're　a　fine　girl。〃
〃It　isn't　good　for　you　to　drink　alone；〃　she　said。　〃You　mustn't　do　it。〃
〃All　right。〃
〃Your　friend　Miss　Barkley's　e；〃　she　said。
〃Really？〃
〃Yes。　I　don't　like　her。〃
〃You　will　like　her。　She's　awfully　nice。〃
She　shook　her　head。　〃I'm　sure　she's　fine。　Can　you　move　just　a　little　to　this　side？　That's　fine。　I'll　clean　you　up　for　breakfast。〃　She　washed　me　with　a　cloth　and　soap　and　warm　water。　〃Hold　your　shoulder　up；〃　she　said。　〃That's　fine。〃
〃Can　I　have　the　barber　before　breakfast？〃
〃I'll　send　the　porter　for　him。〃　She　went　out　and　came　back。　〃He's　gone　for　him；〃　she　said　and　dipped　the　cloth　she　held　in　the　basin　of　water。
The　barber　came　with　the　porter。　He　was　a　man　of　about　fifty　with　an　upturned　mustache。　Miss　Gage　was　finished　with　me　and　went　out　and　the　barber　lathered　my　face　and　shaved。　He　was　very　solemn　and　refrained　from　talking。
〃What's　the　matter？　Don't　you　know　any　news？〃　I　asked。
〃What　news？〃
〃Any　news。　What's　happened　in　the　town？〃
〃It　is　time　of　wai〃　he　said。　〃The　enemy's　ears　are　everywhere。〃
I　looked　up　at　him。　〃Please　hold　your　face　still；〃　he　said　and　went　on　shaving。　〃I　will　tell　nothing。〃
〃What's　the　matter　with　you？〃　I　asked。
〃I　am　an　Italian。　I　will　not　municate　with　the　enemy。〃
I　let　it　go　at　that。　If　he　was　crazy；　the　sooner　I　could　get　out　from　under　the　razor　the　better。　Once　I　tried　to　get　a　good　look　at　him。　〃Beware；〃　he　said。　〃The　razor　is　sharp。〃
I　paid　him　when　it　was　over　and　tipped　him　half　a　lira。　He　returned　the　coins。
〃I　will　not。　I　am　not　at　the　front。　But　I　am　an　Italian。〃
〃Get　the　hell　out　of　here。〃
〃With　your　permission；〃　he　said　and　wrapped　his　razors　in　newspaper。　He　went　out　leaving　the　five　copper　coins　on　the　table　beside　the　bed。　I　rang　the　bell。　Miss　Gage　came　in。　〃Would　you　ask　the　porter　to　e　please？〃
〃All　right。〃
The　porter　came　in。　He　was　trying　to　keep　from　laughing。
〃Is　that　barber　crazy？〃
〃No；　signorino。　He　made　a　mistake。　He　doesn't　understand　very　well　and　he　thought　I　said　you　were　an　Austrian　officer。〃
〃Oh；〃　I　said。
〃Ho　ho　ho；〃　the　porter　laughed。　〃He　was　funny。　One　move　from　you　he　said　and　he　would　have……〃　he　drew　his　forefinger　across　his　throat。
〃Ho　ho　ho；〃　he　tried　to　keep　from　laughing。　〃When　I　tell　him　you　were　not　an　Austrian。　Ho　ho　ho。〃
〃Hoho　ho；〃　I　said　bitterly。　〃How　funny　if　he　would　cut　my　throat。　Ho　ho　ho。〃
〃No；　signorino。　No；　no。　He　was　so　frightened　of　an　Austrian。　Ho　ho　ho。〃
〃Ho　ho　ho；〃　I　said。　〃Get　out　of　here。〃
He　went　out　and　I　heard　him　laughing　in　the　hall。　I　heard　some　one　ing　down　the　hallway。　I　looked　toward　the　door。　It　was　Catherine　Barkley。
She　came　in　the　room　and　over　to　the　bed。
〃Hello；　darling；〃　she　said。　She　looked　fresh　and　young　and　very　beautiful。　I　thought　I　had　never　seen　any　one　so　beautiful。
〃Hello；〃　I　said。　When　I　saw　her　I　was　in　love　with　her。　Everything　turned　over　inside　of　me。　She　looked　toward　the　door；　saw　there　was　no　one；　then　she　sat　on　the　side　of　the　bed　and　leaned　over　and　kissed　me。　I　pulled　her　down　and　kissed　her　and　felt　her　heart　beating。
〃You　sweet；〃　I　said。　〃Weren't　you　wonderful　to　e　here？〃
〃It　wasn't　very　hard。　It　may　be　hard　to　stay。〃
〃You've　got　to　stay；〃　I　said。　〃Oh；　you're　wonderful。〃　I　was　crazy　about　her。　I　could　not　believe　she　was　really　there　and　held　her　tight　to　me。
〃You　mustn't；〃　she　said。　〃You're　not　well　enough。〃
〃Yes；　I　am。　e　on。〃
〃No。　You're　not　strong　enough。〃
〃Yes。　I　am。　Yes。　Please。〃
〃You　do　love　me？〃
〃I　really　love　you。　I'm　crazy　about　you。　e　on　please。〃
〃Feel　our　hearts　beating。〃
〃I　don't　care　about　our　hearts。　I　want　you。　I'm　just　mad　about　you。〃
〃You　really　love　me？〃
〃Don't　keep　on　saying　that。　e　on。　Please。　Please；　Catherine。〃
〃All　right　but　only　for　a　minute。〃
〃All　right；〃　I　said。　〃Shut　the　door。〃
〃You　can't。　You　shouldn't。〃
〃e　on。　Don't　talk。　Please　e　on。〃
Catherine　sat　in　a　chair　by　the　bed。　The　door　was　open　into　the　hall。　The　wildness　was　gone　and　I　felt　finer　than　I　had　ever　felt。
She　asked；　〃Now　do　you　believe　I　love　you？〃
〃Oh；　you're　lovely；〃　I　said。　〃You've　got　to　stay。　They　can't　send　you　away。　I'm　crazy　in　love　with　you。〃
〃We'll　have　to　be　awfully　careful。　That　was　just　madness。　We　can't　do　that。〃
〃We　can　at　night。〃
〃We'll　have　to　be　awfully　careful。　You'll　have　to　be　careful　in　front　of　other　people。〃
〃I　will。〃
〃You'll　have　to　be。　You're　sweet。　You　do　love　me；　don't　you？〃
〃Don't　say　that　again。　You　don't　know　what　that　does　to　me。〃
〃I'll　be　careful　then。　I　don't　want　to　do　anything　more　to　you。　I　have　to　go　now；　darling；　really。〃
〃e　back　right　away。〃
〃I'll　e　when　I　can。〃
〃Good…by。〃
〃Good…by；　sweet。〃
She　went　out。　God　knows　I　had　not　wanted　to　fall　in　love　with　her。　I　had　not　wanted　to　fall　in　love　with　any　one。　But　God　knows　I　had　and　I　lay　on　the　bed　in　the　room　of　the　hospital　in　Milan　and　all　sorts　of　things　went　through　my　head　but　I　felt　wonderful　and　finally　Miss　Gage　came　in。
〃The　doctor's　ing；〃　she　said。　〃He　telephoned　from　Lake　o。〃
〃When　does　he　get　here？〃
〃He'll　be　here　this　afternoon。〃




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Nothing　happened　until　afternoon。　The　doctor　was　a　thin　quiet　little　man　who　seemed　disturbed　by　the　war。　He　took　out　a　number　of　small　steel　splinters　from　my　thighs　with　delicate　and　refined　distaste。　He　used　a　local　anaesthetic　called　something　or　other　〃snow；〃　which　froze　the　tissue　and　avoided　pain　until　the　probe；　the　scalpel　or　the　forceps　got　below　the　frozen　portion。　The　anxsthetized　area　was　clearly　defined　by　the　patient　and　after　a　time　the　doctor's　fragile　delicacy　was　exhausted　and　he　said　it　would　be　better　to　have　an　X…ray。　Probing　was　unsatisfactory；　he　said。
The　X…ray　was　taken　at　the　Ospedale　Maggiore　and　the　doctor　who　did　it　was　excitable；　efficient　and　cheerful。　It　was　arranged　by　holding　up　the　shoulders；　that　the　patient　should　see　personally　some　of　the　larger　foreign　bodies　through　the　machine。　The　plates　were　to　be　sent　over。　The　doctor　requested　me　to　write　in　his　pocket　notebook；　my　name；　and　regiment　and　some　sentiment。　He　declared　that　the　foreign　bodies　were　ugly；　nasty；　brutal。　The　Austrians　were　sons　of　bitches。　How　many　had　I　killed？　I　had　not　killed　any　but　I　was　anxious　to　please……and　I　said　I　had　killed　plenty。　Miss　Gage　was　with　me　and　the　doctor　put　his　arm　around　her　and　said　she　was　more　beautiful　than　Cleopatra。　Did　she　understand　that？　Cleopatra　the　former　queen　of　Egypt。　Yes；　by　God　she　was。　We　returned　to　the　little　hospital　in　the　ambulance　and　after　a　while　and　much　lifting　I　was　upstairs　and　in　bed　again。　The　plates　came　that　afternoon；　the　doctor　had　said　by　God　he　would　have　them　that　afternoon　and　he　did。　Catherine　Barkley　showed　them　to　me。　They　were　in　red　envelopes　and　she　took　them　out　of　the　envelopes　and　held　them　up　to　the　light　and　we　both　looked。
〃That's　your　right　leg；〃　she　said；　then　put　the　plate　back　in　the　envelope。　〃This　is　your　left。〃
〃Put　them　away；〃　I　said；　〃and　e　over　to　the　bed。〃
〃I　can't；〃　she　said。　〃I　just　brought　them　in　for　a　second　to　show　you。〃
She　went　out　and　I　lay　there。　It　was　a　hot　afternoon　and　I　was　sick　of　lying　in　bed。　I　sent　the　porter　for　the　papers；　all　the　papers　he　could　get。
Before　he　came　back　three　doctors　came　into　the　room。　I　have　noticed　that　doctors　who　fail　in　the　practice　of　medicine　have　a　tendency　to　seek　one　another's　pany　and　aid　in　consultation。　A　doctor　who　cannot　take　out　your　appendix　properly　will　remend　to　you　a　doctor　who　will　be　unable　to　remove　your　tonsils　with　success。　These　were　three　such　doctors。
〃This　is　the　young　man；〃　said　the　house　doctor　with　the　delicate　hands。
〃How　do　you　do？〃　said　the　tall　gaunt　doctor　with　the　beard。　The　third　doctor；　who　carried　the　X…ray　plates　in　their　red　envelopes；　said　nothing。
〃Remove　the　dressings？〃　questioned　the　bearded　doctor。
〃Certainly。　Remove　the　dressings；　please；　nurse；〃　the　house　doctor　said　to　Miss　Gage。　Miss　Gage　removed　the　dressings。　I　looked　down　at　the　legs。　At　the　field　hospital　they　had　the　look　of　not　too　freshly　ground　hamburger　steak。　Now　they　were　crusted　and　the　knee　was　swollen　and　discolored　and　the　calf　sunken　but　there　was　no　pus。
〃Very　clean；〃　said　the　house　doctor。　〃Very　clean　and　nice。〃
〃Urn；〃　said　the　doctor　with